So Thomas started a new job yesterday. This is great news. It has been 4 months since he was laid off from CG. Although we know that this is indeed a great blessing from Heavenly Father, I have been quite nervous for the day to arrive that we wouldn't be together 24/7. Since Thomas was laid off it's been him and I together pretty well always. I believe Heavenly Father knew that we would need that kind of time to love each other, and support each other during the time surrounding Cali's life and passing. Well, yesterday was Thomas' first day. Knowing this I filled my To Do List up full. I did 3 loads of laundry, folded and put away, put the dishes away, made dinner, organized our place, rode my bike 4 miles to the store to buy a few supplies, and by the time I was done with all that Thomas was home. Now the problem came today when my To Do List was rather empty, and I knew it was upon waking up this morning. That is when the emptiness started to creep in. I had this whole day ahead of my with only a little list, and a lot of fear. How would I fill up my day? What could I do to keep myself busy so I wouldn't feel the loneliness? Well, I got on my knees and prayed that I would be comforted today.
At 1 o'clock Aunt Lynette and Uncle Ed stopped by. We had a great visit, they even took me up to see Cali (I don't currently have a car!) So it was nice to get to visit Cali, to chat with Ed & Lynette and to feel of their love. Truly an answer to my prayer. Then upon coming home I received a call from my dad! We had a great chat. Then I got to talk to my mom too for a little while, again, a great chat. And all I can say at this point is that my heart is full. Thank God for listening, and thank those who listened to Him to be an answer to my prayer. Instead of feeling weak, alone, and down like I did this morning, I feel loved, and even though my road is still a hard one, I know that I have loving family and friends there with me. And of course, my Heavenly Father and my daughter up above. And with this support I know I can walk this road.